Memoirs of a novice Blogger...

For the past few days I have been searching for inspiration...Many of you bloggers might not agree with me here but I tell you...the job of a Blogger is way too difficult! Sometimes I find it extremely challenging to write...to write about something which does not move my heart or stir my soul! Yeah it true...emotions need to flow for me to pour it out!
Some days I make all attempt...cancel my evening hangout with friends, take a quickie slumber, freshen up, grab a cup of coffee and switch on my laptop! My fingers eventually find its way to log onto Facebook...ohh no wait! I stop myself! "Get a grip girl! You are a blogger! Better behave like one!" I open my blog, scrutinize the layout and design and promise myself to come up with a better and customized one...ONLY after I write something! I create a new post and then...I start thinking! I stare at every possible objects in the room, try to think about anything interesting that might have happened over the past few days...I think hard...The itch to scribble increases, I write ramdom stuff...and delete and rewrite...I find them oddly pathetic and plain jane and before long I chuck my blogging plans and catch up on the last season of The Big Bang Theory!!! Past midnight...guilt drizzles in! I feel like killing myself for wasting half a day and not coming up with a content!

And then not to mention, the peer pressure!...my co-bloggers often ask me about what's cooking in my mind of late and sometimes all I say is, "Ummm...you know I have been really really caught up! Haven't had a chance to sit down at it! But I'm planning to...yeah...very soon...a superb thought has just struck me!"

And then...my Whats app status immediately changes from 'Online' to 'Last seen'!!!

Also there are my readers. Talk about them? I love my readers. A two thumbs up for my dearie friends who are extremely dedicated when it comes to reading my pieces....no matter how bad they might be! Some share the links on their fb timelines...How sweet! Some goes like, "Wow! Shayoni! What a content man! You are too good a writer...Why not try writing a book now!" (Lolzz...are you serious?) There are a few who take time to read, analyze and give me invaluable opinion. I find inspiration in what they say! Sometimes appreciation from unknown readers make my day! I check my daily visit graph. A soaring steady line makes me really happy. I feel proud of myself :-)

Then my Inner Goddess takes charge! " Heyy ", she says, " Chill! Slow down! You ain't a professional! You are a blogger by choice! You do, not an excellent but a somewhat ok job! Never give up, don't get pressed if you don't get enough food for thoughts all the time, just relax and keep writing!"

Phew! I heave a sigh of relief!....

Heyy...now that you know the blogger me better, don't go about shunning my blog altogether coz thats gonna make me feel real real bad! Just know that how much ever bad a blogger I am, whatever you say, whether you like my blog or not, I am grateful to you guys for atleast taking the time out to read and ponder over my scribbles! And I love and appreciate every single thing that you say to me...Pardon me! I am a novice blogger but I promise to give my best and resort to becoming a better blogger with each passing day! I will try and make you happy..which in turn will make me happy too! After all, happiness is life...isn't it? Tada!